kaakaa | (no subject)

Sorry for the dead air on my end. I've been kind of busy so
It's not because I'm trying to avoid you or anything.
I just hope you've been doing okay.

it’s okay. I don’t ever assume the worst, usually!! What’s been keeping you busy? And what about you, are you okay?

It's just schoolwork that's all. College sometimes feels like nothing's going on and then other times you don't have time to do anything else. I'm just trying to make the future semesters easier for myself.

But sometimes it's difficult to focus with other stuff on my mind?? So I know I keep opening your contact in my phone only to close it.
Honestly it'd be totally out of place to type out all my thoughts like this. It hasn't been all *that* long since I've talked to you but
It kind of feels like it has?
It's pretty stupid putting it like that when I don't know what I'm even trying to say!

are you trying to tell me you missed me? What is that you’re going to school for anyway…?

Maybe I am. But it wouldn't make much sense would it?? I mean it really hasn't been that long at all. And that just feels like a selfish thing to say.
I've just been spoiled lately by living normally like this.

I know I mentioned it on the app but it's been a while huh???? I can't act like I really talk about that stuff a lot anyway. But I want to work with kids.

sure it makes sense. I miss you too. It’s normal… it’s okay to be selfish, isn’t that what you tell me sometimes?

oh yeah… I really should take you to Martha’s sometime…

Martha's?

Martha... she kind of raised, Yusei, Jack and I, you could say. She takes care of all the orphans. I help out there a lot. You can meet the kids there too.

It sounds like an important place.
One of these days i'd like to go.

Really? She’ll insist on feeding you.

Who would i be to tell her no?? If it means meeting her then I'm okay with it.
I have to be selfish a little.

I think it's easier telling people that than applying that to my own mindset.
I've walked with my head down and repressing my own feelings for most of my life so there's a lot I have to do.

We could plan it soon if you’d like! She’d be happy to have us anytime!!!

I believe in you, though! You can do anything you set your mind to and I want to see… I want to know your feelings and thoughts.

I'm not sure for a concrete day just yet. I don't want something to come up and to have to cancel.

Well I've been selfish enough to keep talking to you. So that counts for something.

That’s fair. We can just drop by for dinner or lunch someday that you’re free.

well, I can keep talking to you forever~ you can be more selfish.

That might just weaken my resolve if I'm even more selfish.

what do you mean?

[ what does resolve mean again… ]

I mean then I'll end up missing you more I guess.

And I’ll still be here.

And that's why I have to maintain my resolve. But I know I can't expect people to wait around for me either.

Nazuna, I’m not going anywhere.

I don't mean literally.

mm, just saying regardless

Isn't there something you want to do with your life?

I don’t know what that has to do with this? :x

People can change is all I'm saying. And that's not a bad thing.

I mean I might have goals but… I guess I just think about you being there still.

You think about a lot of things.

is that bad?

If only because you're a bad influence On me.

I’m not sorry~.

Yeah I'm not expecting an apology from you anytime soon.

I like you so much 🫠

And that's a you problem.

I’ll make it a you problem too!!!

Is that supposed to be a threat?

a cute one

That's kind of lame, Karashin.

(´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

How are you going to make it my problem?

I'm..not sure...

Your threats never have any teeth. It's hard to take them seriously. I know crows don't have teeth but that's not important.

:< how long are you gonna be busy for, Nazuna~

It depends on why you're asking.

Just wondering when I can see you.

Wouldn't that kind of depend on when you're free too?

I think it's easier for me to move things around than it is for you.

That doesn't mean i want you to rearrange stuff for my sake. But I should have some free time in a couple more weeks.

Why not? I can do it. It's not an inconvenience for me...

There is a tournament coming up soon... that I can't change the time of but if you wanted to see it you could come to the team box area.

Tournament?

Turbo dueling~

You'd want me to come even though I don't know much about it?

I mean I can teach you some if you wanted but also, the guys would be there and everything. The whole team! We can all help you.

Maybe sometime eventually you can try to teach me.
I'll come see the tournament though.

seriously?!

I want to.

that’s amazing

What is??

that you want to come… I thought maybe you’d think it’d be boring or too dorky

I want to see Karashin. So if supporting him somewhere like that is an option then I will.

thank you. I wanna win even more now

Isn't the idea to have fun?

yeah but… we could use the prize money if we win so

Oh there's that kind of prize. Well then I don't blame you.
But you're still great even if you don't get it.

you haven’t even seen me play~

I meant a great person.

oh. Okay okay

If you do win though I'll definitely need to reward you too.

oh~?

Pizza?

yes! And kisses!

That isn't much of a reward when you'd get those anyway.

yeah but I still want victory kisses

If you do win then i will make sure to do that at a later date.

Great~

And more.

Yeah? Tell me.

Can't.

What?! Why not?

You really don't know??

I haven’t seen you for a while, maybe I want you to tell me.

You haven't actually won yet!!

Inspire me by telling me my prize if I do~

And if you lose?

My consolation prize can be a secret.

Are you hoping the prize will be something in particular?

uh uh

Then you've got nothing to worry about.

I'm not forgetting I'm trying to get you to sext me, Nazuna!

You're trying to make yourself suffer huh?

I’m already suffering~

And contributing to that would have you succeed in making it my problem.

You don't wanna sext with me~?

You said you weren't satisfied fully by stuff like that.

do you think I don’t get horny just because we haven’t sexted?

Touché.

do you get horny?

I'd be lying if I said no.

Tell me more! What do you t hink about when you get horny?

You know what I think about!!

tell me, please

You.

But what about me?

That I miss you.

Of course you miss me. I'm great.

You really won't give me anyyyyyyy details will you?

There have been a couple times where I'd imagine you just showing up somewhere I am even though that stuff wouldn't be decent. But even more than that I remember what it's like when you latch on for a hug. And think about how I wish that was more readily available sometimes.

[ It's... kind of instantly that Crow forgets the fact that he's been trying to get Nazuna to sext him. He frowns and the other's admission brings a mixture of a pang of pain in his chest and a warm and fuzzy feeling as well. ]

I wish it was too. I love hugging you. It's frustrating I can't be near you all the time. I'd make sure you'd get at least one hug a day from me.

Well I'm an adult. So I can handle myself just fine. Getting that kind of assurance just makes me feel lame if I'm being honest. Maybe it's just something about being human. Your grip is kind of impressive too.

You wouldn't be lame for getting affection from someone that cares about you. >:| Why shouldn't adults hug? Maybe the world would be better if more people got more hugs.

yeah? you like that?

I didn't say adults can't hug. I just think it makes me sound needy. I said I liked it didn't I????

We both know I'm the needy one in this relationship. You're not needy because you want a hug from someone you care about and who cares about you, y'know. And even if you were what's wrong with being needy. You like me even if I'm needy.

YEAH I MEAN YEAH. ... idk what I was getting at.

You aren't needy.

Seriously?

You never done anything that seemed "needy." You just ask for normal things.

I guess... I feel needy sometimes because I ask for so much more than you do.

You'd actually have to be asking for stuff for that to be true. Because it's not like you ask for a lot.

I don't like the idea of putting you in a position where you'd have to say no.

If it's about something like a kidney donation I might say no so I can see your point on that.

Well, like right now... if I asked you to come sleep over, you'd need to say no, right?

Well yes but that's not something crazy to ask for.

Being needy doesn't equal being crazy, nazuna!

It doesn't really matter.

I just... really like you, you know?

I know you aren't needy. You have your own life and friends and interests. You get by. I'm very lucky that you do. I'm glad That we both swiped in the same direction.

[ A part of him wants to point out that he needs those friends in his life just like he needs Nazuna but he decides maybe they should let go of the topic sooner rather than later. ]

We're both lucky. I think that making this kind of connection doesn't happen very often that way~. I didn't even really know what I was looking for but finding you was the best.

I don't think making that sort of connection in person doesn't often happen enough like that either. Now it sounds like I'm gloating?? But it feels like something to gloat about I guess.

It is~. Gloat about it all you want.

Kinda makes me feel extra special to you.

Someday soon, spend the night. I miss you.

You *are* special. For sex?

You're special too.

No...I mean if we had sex that'd be cool but... I just miss you. I wanna eat with you and talk and hug. I like to sleep with you by my side.

Do you think I'm too horny?

That sounds nice night actually. Of course I'd want to spend a night over there next time we can. No that wasn't what I was trying to get at. I was just asking because i'm not opposed to it.

You can come any night. I can always rearrange my work... I know it's harder for you to rearrange stuff.

well~ we'll see how you feel when you're over here. Maybe I'll make you make the first move.

That's a pretty bold statement when Karashin's quick to resort to begging.

Maybe. But maybe I wanna see you getting me to beg in a different way. If you wanted to.

"In a different way?"

I don't know!

You can't pose that sort of challenge and not have any expectation!! How am I supposed to accept the challenge??

well… I’m usually begging you to fuck me and you’re usually teasing me like whether you’ll give it to me or not…

So you're saying you want to do it differently?

i guess I was kind of thinking maybe sometime it being like so much that I don’t want you to stop but like it’s~ overwhelming or something. Is that weird?

But… also, kinda think it’d be sexy to let you make the first move especially since I know I’m always so easy about wanting you and telling you so. Not that I mind!!!

You mean the making you beg part?? You make a good point. I'm just not good at what you do.

I think… I mean more like you fuck me until I can’t take it anymore and make me beg that way…

Sometime, just… kiss me and push me down on the bed~ or something. Or not!

So you want to beg me to stop?

because it’s so good… is that too much?

No it's not too much.? I guess I just don't really understand what you'd be begging for.

mmmm to come, to take a break… I dunno! It’s kind of dumb. Don’t think about it!

It's not dumb. You just need to put in the effort to explain it to me otherwise I won't be able to give you what you want. But I'm getting it now so that's all you had to do. So you basically want to be bullied.

I just got nervous and kinda embarrassed trying to explain it. And yeah I guess you’re right… but I only want it if it turns you on too.

When I said before I wanted to protect you I meant that. So I want to think if you asked for something then it wouldn't be something that'd actually hurt you.

of course! I still… like it when you say that you want to protect me. It’s hard to explain why it means a lot to me but I’ll figure out someday.

Sometimes things don't need explaining and that's just how they are. Like maybe why I want to protect you comes from the same place where I want to meet your challenge. Making Karashin beg for something else sounds pretty exciting right??

it does, very exciting .

I'll make sure to use you to a point where you can't help but beg. Okay??

that’s… so hot, Nazuna

You're the one who said it first.

but it’s hotter for me when you say it

All i have to do is steal your ideas huh??

Well it's not just that... just let it be sexy okay!

Like you?

You can’t just say things like that~.

What else am i supposed to say?? That you're repulsive?

Well then you'd just be lying.

I'm just too easy for you. >:|

You're an easy pain in the ass.

I could be a pain in the ass hahahaha

The joke isn't funny if it doesn't make any sense.

You're just a hard sale.

How's that the case when I said you were attractive????
Unless you're implying that you think you're ugly.

What no! I just mean it's... hard to get you to laugh at my jokes sometimes!

Are you going to explain the joke so I can laugh?

No. :< It's not funny if it has to be explained.

Just go back to telling me how I'm sexy.

Karashin is the most gorgeous person I've ever met.

You're not just exaggerating are you?

There's no reason to exaggerate. Being dishonest at a time like this would be awful right??

Well yeah. I guess... even if I believe you it still feels hard to believe it can be true. Like it's too good to be true.

You're the one who told me to tell you things. So don't complain.

I'm not! I just didn't expect it like that. I like it.

I guess i might have embarrassed you a little too?? Since i didn't exactly say what you told me to. I'm bad at following orders.

Maybe but not in a bad way.

It'd be boring if you were good at following orders~

Well if i'm being honest, that was more me trying to avoid embarrassing myself. Saying "you're sexy" just feels kind of silly coming from me.

Why would it feel silly? It's a normal thing to say to your boyfriend isn't it?

My what ?

[ Shit. Neither of them have ever said that out loud. It's a few minutes of Crow panicking before he finally responds. ]

Your friends with benefits?

My what??

Nazuna. I don't know! What do you wanna call this?

I'm not trying to call it anything.

Okay then. I'm just Crow.

This isn't the type of conversation to have when we're not face to face. You know that??
You aren't "just" Crow.
Not when you mean everything.

[ Crow stares at the messages and especially the last one, something tight in his chest loosening a bit. ]

I guess I kind of just assumed it was uh a conversation we were past. We can talk when you're free I know you're busy.

I just really care about you and I'm kind of crazy about you is all. You mean everything, you know that right?

Maybe it's a conversation I'm okay with never having.

That's fine.

At least we can agree on something.

Yeah.

Though now I'm getting this weird feeling you aren't agreeing with me so much as trying to appease me.

no. It's all good, Nazuna. :3

Don't lie.

I'm not lying. I'm just sorry I said something dumb.

You didn't say anything dumb. It was me who did Because I used the word "sexy."

It isn't dumb when you say sexy. I like it.

You like anything i say.

That's not true.

That's good then.

When do you think you'll have some free time again?

It might depend on why you're asking.

Because I miss seeing you? But I'm also not supposed to be distracting you. So~ I just wanna know when I can bother you to come visit.

I could be free the day after tomorrow.

awesome. We could do anything you want or just hang in my room… or go for a ride.

You want to go for a ride. Don't you?

I always like going for a ride.

Then we'll go for a ride.

Do you want to or you just doing it because I like to?

The answer is obviously both?
It's kind of embarrassing but it's a good feeling of holding onto you when you're in your zone like that.

I like knowing that. hm we could take food and have a picnic in the spot from last time.

A picnic?? I don't really have anything that i could bring with me that'd be considered substantial.

I'll bring the food. it's not like it has to be fancy right?

Huh?? It never needs to be fancy. The point is getting to see you.

Exactly~ we'll have some sandwiches!

That's some sort of domestic bliss right there.

What's your favorite kind of sandwich and don't dare deflect the question!

I guess a fruit sando isn't an acceptable answer huh?? Egg then.

I can bring fruit...! And if you like fruit on a sandwich then i can do that too.

I can bring snacks. You worry about the sandwiches.

So egg and not fruit?

That's right. Egg. And whatever you like.

Okay~ got it.

Thank you Crow.

You never call me Crow...

Crow reads sexier than Karashin, maybe.

Maybe~ but, I do like how you call me Karashin and no one else does. It's special. It makes me feel special.

You are special. Crows are predators, aren't they?

They are... I mean they're scavengers too.

Rabbits don't like their feet involuntarily leaving the ground. Though I guess that could apply to most animals. Point still stands about you being special.

I don't totally get what you're trying to say but

I say it all makes you special too.

You're so poetic.

You're full of it~

Normally you're the one who's full of it. ヾ(*ゝω・*)ﾉ

And I like being full of it.

Birdbrain.

Crows are also very intelligent so thank you~

I've been outsmarted by one a couple times so you aren't wrong.

They like shiny things too.

I have no idea what that's got to do with anything.

You're shiny to me.

Isn't it a myth that crows like shiny things?

No. :|

I'm pretty sure it is. Besides just because you put your mouth on something doesn't mean it's actually shiny.

This is something silly to be difficult about!

Because i still don't know what the whole shiny thing means or has anything to do with Anything.

I just like you okay. That's all.

You really just settle on the bottom line instead of beating around the bush to explain yourself. It's cute.

It’s easier to just be honest I think.

That's what makes you so reliable. And why i need to see you at your tournament.

how are those things related~?

Because it's you.

I’m so excited for you to see us play

Me too. I'll be sure to cheer you guys on so loudly that you'll have to hear me.

really??

You'll have to tell me if you heard me after it's over. But that's my goal.

the idea makes me so happy.

You're not the only one with a big mouth.

I’m aware~

(*´･з･)

Mwah~

Was my text unexpected?

not really!

Dammit. Do I text that much??

yes and no~ it’s just you’re fond of me so of course you’re gonna message me :3

You're really cheeky you know that?? But you're not wrong. I was trying to take your advice but I think you meant it more for in person and not over messaging.

[ Crow is pretty good about being on time... or more like it, early. It's what makes his delivery service successful. So he's still in his yellow blackbird jacket from work as he pulls up on his duel runner and parks. He leans against it once the kickstand is down, taking his helmet off and digging the chocolates out to be ready for when Asuka shows up. ]

[ Asuka does finally show up. Thanks to the warm weather, she's in a sundress - something she tends to prefer honestly. She takes a moment to look for him and then spots Crow and heads on over. ]

There you are!

[ Crow's eyes brighten and he grins when he catches sight of her. For a second the grin is a bit dopey as he thinks of how pretty she is but it's shaken off as she comes close.

He holds out the chocolates. ]

you look really cute today.

Don't I always?

[ Sorry, she's a pill. ]

Thank you~ [ That for the chocolates as she snags them. ]

Well yeah, but I like telling you anyway.

[ Crow adjusts his headband and then crosses his arms lightly. ]

So, you wanna walk around and find a bench? I can take you for a ride later.

Mmm, I can walk.

[ She clasps her hands behind her, the box tucked under one arm. ]

It's not a bad day for it.

[ Crow pushes away from his motorcycle after making sure it's secure and he stretches his arms above his head as he sidles up next to her. ]

Yeah. The weather's been really great.

I guess so - I wish it'd cool down a little, though.

[ She swings her arms a bit carelessly, gaze on the dappled shade the trees throw from overhead. ]

Sometimes it just gets too hot, you know?

[ Crow nods. He could take his jacket off to cool down himself but he doesn't. He glances toward her and then to the chocolates. ]

Hopefully those won't be melting. I'd feel kinda bad...

[ And he can't afford to keep buying chocolate for a girl no matter how pretty she is. ]

Mmm, they'll be fine. Although I could just eat them right now...

[ She seems quietly pleased by the idea. ]

Let's find a bench!

[ Crow grins and he starts to look around for a bench that would be nice. He spots one that's not the closest but it has a nice bit of shade from the sun and a nice view. He points over to it. ]

What do you think of that one?

That'll work-!

[ And Asuka darts ahead to settle, smoothing out her skirt as she sits. ]

Hurry up!

[ Crow quickly joins her, sitting down about six inches away. ]

You're always in a hurry for everything.

Is there a reason I shouldn't be?

No, I guess not. Sometimes I think it's good to just chill and relax. Take things in you know?

I don't like sitting still for so long.

[ She starts to open the chocolate. ]

Makes me feel hemmed in, I guess.

Yeah. I mean, I don't got a lot time for it, so when I get it I try to enjoy it. I can understand how'd someone would feel the way you do, though.

...I guess that makes sense. What's got you so busy anyway?

I got work… and when I’m not working there’s team practice and working on our bikes…

...you do a lot.

[ She pokes at him with a finger. ]

And you worry so much about those bikes!

[ Crow looks a bit sheepish. he didn't even mention a lot of the other things he gets busy with doing because he's pretty sure he'd look like even more of a dork. ]

My bike is my living!

What is it you do, exactly? Courier or something...?

[ She's curious. ]

Yeah. I run a business. Blackbird Delivery! It's real busy.

And yet you made time to see me~

[ She's teasing. ]

[ the tips of Crow’s ears go pink and he reaches up rubbing one self consciously. ]

Well yeah. I still don’t know how I made you mad but I wanna make up for it.

That's something I appreciate about you.

[ Or maybe he's easy to bully a little. That might be it. ]

Really? Awesome.

[ Crow smiles genuinely. ]

I'd like it if you could help me understand, though. But if you want me to just figure it out over time then that's okay too.

Understand why I was angry at you?

[ She blinks. ]

Yeah. I mean I didn't mean to make you angry.

...it doesn't matter now.

[ She forgot. ]

So you're not angry anymore?

[ Crow hums cheerfully. ]

I guess not.

[ She laughs and pops a chocolate in her mouth. ]

So you're spared, for now.

Great.

[ Crow sighs in relief. He leans back and stretches his arms above his head before pillowing the back of his head in his hands. ]

You wanna go for a ride after you're done with the chocolate?

Sure - it'll be fun~

[ She does enjoy some thrill rides - and a motorcycle is fun! ]

Awesome.

[ Crow's expression brightens even more. How could he be anything but excited to have a pretty girl on his bike with him. ]

Got anywhere you wanna take me?

[ She grins. ]

Or just a ride?

No where in particular. We could hit up a street vendor for some food and go look at the water side or something?

[ He’s gonna end up cutting into some work hours but every once in a while it’s okay. ]

Oooh, let's go look at the sea!

[ She seems enthusiastic about that - and maybe she's kinda dressed for it, what with the sundress and everything. ]

Ready when you are!

Great!

[ Crow grins and then he gets up, offering her his hand. He won’t be offended if she doesn’t take it, though. ]

I love going by the water.

[ She reaches up to take his hand and pops to her feet with a grin, a hand on her hip. ]

It's kinda soothing, right?

[ Crow squeezes her hand and he'll hold onto it as long as she lets him as he starts heading back toward his bike. ]

Yeah. It's like everything else disappears.